It looks like you have your priorities straight with safety at the top. It sounds like you're aware of the probablity of a mistake that would compromise safety and dial it back just a little. I don't think anyone should get beat up over this, your parents or yourself.
Regardless of whether it's a mental block it sounds like you're working on the right things and not going out of control. That will translate in better matches.
I still have a little voice in my head telling me to be careful. It's mostly because I don't want to get sent home early from a DQ earned by being unsafe.
It's been a couple months since your first point. How are things going? Do you still feel it's affecting your speed?
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